Need to let this out and need advice, can anyone help?

It seems as if you have created a lot of drama for your-self. Unless you just like drama, why don't you just take a break and be by your-self for awhile? Take some time to digg into your-self and enjoy your-self, at the same time you can think things through. This will give you a chance to clear your head and figure out a few things. It will help you be able to see things more clearly. Don't lose sight of who you are and the person you want to be in your heart.